We change our minds. As humans that's what we do, we change. We grow older, we want different things. It's hard to accept that what we had wanted so bad before we may not want anymore. We feel like we owe it to ourselves to just do what we had wanted to do so bad. But that's not the case. And it's the most awful feeling ever. This is something I have been struggling with for weeks. Do I accept this new summer job that I've been praying to have the opportunity to do for months and months, or do I open up my summer to the possibilities that God may have in store? It's taken so much prayer and thought and I still can't seem to make up my mind, but then at the same time I feel as if I've made my decision. I'm making plans for summer that I couldn't if I decided to take this job.

God calls us to live a radical life. A life that shows His love to others. So here I am, possibly passing up the opportunity to do just that. Am I a bad Christian because I'm not taking this opportunity? Or am I listening to what He's telling me? What if it's just my thoughts that are telling me these things?

A couple months ago, something my youth pastor said really stuck with me, if you're not at peace with a decision then it's God telling you that you haven't made the right choice. Ever since then, I've taken that into my own life, every time I had to make a choice that didn't feel right, I would go towards the one that felt better. And I still do that, I truly believe what he said.

So this is what I'm doing, I'm going to follow what I believe God is telling me through prayer and the kind words I'm receiving from people around me.

Some Tidbits

I'm an open book, always have been, always will be. I enjoy telling my stories and I enjoy hearing about other people's stories. So I thought I'd share some little things about myself to keep the open book thing rolling. 

+ I love my job. I work with amazing, incredible, beautiful two year olds. They are my best friends. 

+ I'm a shopaholic. No surprise there.

+ I hate winter. Me and the cold do not go well together. Yuck.

+ I've never had a boyfriend. Not in all my eighteen years. But I want one. Hint hint. 

+ I've lived in the same city my entire life. I love it a lot. 

+ I've dreamed of being a writer since I was in Middle School and moving to New York.

+ I worked in retail for a year. It taught me a lot about the fashion industry and also made me hate socializing with strangers. 

+ I'm a leader for a group of 7th grade girls at my church. I adore every single one of them. 

+ My favorite book is Revolutionary Road by Richard Yates. 

+ I have an obsession with candles. 'Nuff said. 

+ I've been to Gatlinburg, Tennessee three times. 

+ I've never been to Disney World. (Please be good to me 2015, I want to go!)

+ My favorite show is New Girl

+ I've broken both of my arms - not at the same time. 

+ I've been through one major surgery and it was the scariest time in my life. 

+ I love Jesus. 

Those are fun! Everyone should try it at some point in your life. You get to learn a little bit more about yourself. 

Penguins + Sequins

The weather has been super crummy lately - snow, slush, rain, and ice all combined. Oh Michigan. So I thought I'd try out my new tripod and stay inside for the afternoon. This outfit was what I wore to a holiday party and I loved it. It's simple, comfortable, and just plain cute! Also, if anyone is an expert at some good indoor photos, shoot me an email! I'd love to hear some tips on how to create better photos indoors! I was quite thankful to have a small little space in my bedroom to take these pictures. Right next to my "Follow That Dream" picture. I just adore it, and it's quite fitting, don't you think? That's going to be my 2015 motto. Follow that dream.

And, a huge thank you to everyone giving me advice, tips, and messages. Your kind words make my heart full and I love each of you. Thank you, thank you!

Shirt: ASOS 

Skirt: DEB Shops (Plus sold out!)